Pauley's Tavern and Pool Hall

Daydreams to cope with sometimes take on lives of their own....

al·le·go·ryˈ (aləˌgôrē) noun

plural noun: allegories

   "A story, poem, or picture that can be interpreted to reveal a hidden meaning, typically a moral or political one."

   “An Allegory is a form of extended metaphor in which objects, persons and actions in a narrative, are equated with meanings that lie outside the narrative itself.

The underlining meaning has moral, social, religious or political significance of abstract ideas as charity, greed and envy.

Thus an allegory is a story with two meanings, a literal meaning and a symbolic meaning.”

   Yes, I looked it the f*ck up and with that you know what is needed to be known to understand what the Pauley’s Tavern and Pool Hall book series is about.

  Oh I should add that the censor is pretty much off most of the time. PG this story is not. PG13 neither. R yes; but beyond that?

Shhh....

Now some background info on the place ”The R*tards" go to play.

(Pauley’s term of endearment for his patrons that don’t act their age, especially when sh*tfaced.

Think about what "r*tarded" means, then how it's used in every day language to be an insulting description.

Just like calling a child a "b*stard", some words should be questioned as too f*cked up to use like they're whatever.

"Wh***" is another one with an edge, and yes these words among others will be questioned, but you as readers decide the fate of these words as they apply to your personal vocabularies.)

   Pauley’s Tavern and Pool Hall is a sort of 'speak-easy' name for The Iron Horseshoe Tavern established back in 1974 by Paul "Pauley" Kelly.

It’s called this to keep what are now known as 'hipster' invaders away, and its whereabouts only known by word of mouth.

Is it elitist?

Perhaps.

Or it is about self preservation and preventing as long as possible, their haven from being taken over by those that do not honor tradition, nor would uphold Pauley's Code of Conduct.

  New folks are welcome, as long as they can respect the School House Rules and don't complain when Lucy gets unplugged; otherwise foos are getting their a*ses expelled!

   Over the years The Tavern has become a home away from home club house for old timers and mostly blue collar roughneck man children with its latest motley generation currently in their 30’s, give or take.

Some married with children or divorced with visitation on the weekends.

They have bills to pay, money to save, jobs to not f*ck up in order to do both.

Occasionally these a*sholes may brawl and Pauley’s shotgun Grace taken out to dance, with Jukebox Lucy playing the soundtrack; but overall the place is mellow on a weekday afternoon.

   The crowd that made The Tavern its watering hole is loyal and there is a sense of kinship between the boozer drunks.

Stories this tavern has no lack of thanks to the antics of the patrons, which also include my own.

   I wrote myself in as a character using my real name because all this stemmed from a daydream I had, to keep me company while I went for long walks with detours, in my new town of residence;

Boyle Heights, California.

   Though home for me will always be my beloved

East Los Angeles, Califas

   One day I thought of a man that didn’t exist to help me move on and let go of the past, by focusing on the existing hope of the present and lessons learned.

  Perhaps it was my way to prepare myself mentally for the future because I don't have much to my name other than my imagination.

 “Mikey, Jacob, Bobby, Joe, Paul, Davey, Alex, Dennis and Lou”

   Names of made up men that are a close knit pack of pals I will never forget.

They all represent an aspect of the men I have known, both in the good and bad; but they are human, even if fictional.

They are part of the details to the symposium full of zanies.

   This story experiment at times is a sort of open love letter to men that have shown their integrity even as they also try to get things right.

These men are strong but also weak.

Happy but still stressed.

Hopeful but discouraged at times with what they feel is out of their control.

It’s a mix we all endure, but with them; I feel how unequal men still are when it comes to expressing their feelings on it all.

How do I know?

I'm a daughter of one that expressed them regardless.

   The women in this saga also are shown going through their own life roller coasters and attaining their triumphs for they too are strong and capable.

It’s just with them, the way their stories are told is different.

How different?

The goal is to show we could use a little bit of understanding from the fellas.

With their stories, I hope to tell men that not all of us are their enemies or psychos, that more often than not, there was an issue with communicating and emotions go on edge.

We can be worthy of trusting and also respecting.

I hope to tell, we can have our bad days too, even if our hairstyles look nice; and we don't always know what the f*ck we're doing either.

We do know we could be wrong also.

No really.

Women are capable of knowing they can be wrong. Getting us to admit it, now that's something else.

*cough*

I want to show the men I was able to reach through to, women can be their friends as well, and shoulder part of the old burdens that say a man must bare these alone.

Even as women, we can relate and be more than arm candy hood ornaments, "Honey can you bring me a beer?".

  But this is to reassure the males that are willing to read, they'll have a place in what is usually considered female terrain.

  Yes this is a quirky soap opera Spanglish novela, for a subculture of those that bought in to what a friend called:

"The Rockabilly Retirement Plan for Punks, Skins and Goths".

And what was surprising, the guys did get in to it as much as the gals. I mean, how can I write an open love letter to men, if I don't include what matters to and interests them?

  From the serious like Erectile Dysfunction or even the car not starting and being already late for work.

To the "Are you f*cking serious!?!" and the latter said in two manners.

One with enthusiastic glee like they scored, and the other in BOHICA despair.

Espeakin' of which....

This is a bedtime story dedicated most of all to Our Troops and 'Docs' green side or civilian; for I do know the power of a reality break, if not reading oneself asleep.

And this because I want to "Play It Forward" and yes I do mean play.

  The man I would spend countless silent moments, wondering about his happiness and safety; he was the life lesson I needed to get me out of a bad place; even as I felt helpless knowing which bad place he was headed back to.

This Army Coptor Doctor ridding one of Anansi's spiderweb threads, tied to the foot of a Dragonfly Dustoff back in Stan; reminded me why being able to control your focus, makes dealing with difficult things, easier to cope with.

The chaos will still be there, it's how you allow it to affect you, that makes a very important difference.

You either learn how to hold on and fight or you don't. That "don't" had been my concern for him.

There was a reason his story began to stand out to me.

"Yet for me that also came from the desert, compassion I also knew how to show...."

  Eyes like his and lack of smile, you don't forget.

He had the face of many that aren't returning all that well; but his face comforted me when it would look silly; but haunted when it was a stoic with unintended, resigned grace.

  So this allegory that aims to be a cult classic, does have its soul, as that odd daydream of mine, found a life of its own.

And it became a Shoretale Fable of Therapy in Motion and thinking up the answers that become the solutions.

It's all just rhyming for the reasons, that carry us through the seasons of change.

Suggestion: Look up Grandiose, Ostentatious, Pretentious, Narcissistic, Delusional, Self Absorbed Motor Mouth, but most of all Ironic Catharsis. Thank you.

Back To The Top Where It Starts

Copyright ©2017 Rev. Mother L. G. Flores. All Rights Reserved.

Heaven Please Bless All That is "Pauley's...." and May No Harm Come To This Therapy In Motion, Adult After School Special, What Happens Cuando Nos Ponemos Las Pilas, Mark In Miles Stones, for This Dreamer and Music Maker Shake, Rattle n' Roll!

Amen.

"Siempre Fiel En Lagrimas Y Sangre"

"I feel like a pinball in a pinball machine."

~Doc Spooner~

Press Play To Listen To 3 Doors Down "Kryptonite" For The Soundtrack

You got fifty cents. Half a dollar to play with two tries, a game where you command the pinball machine and the pinball inside....

Try #1

"Are you the pinball or are you the machine?"

~Sinko James~

"Wouldn't it be somethin' if all that I'm going through is worth it at the end?

And wouldn't it be cool if all the weight I've been carrying on my mind falls off finally, and I can rest like I've been needing to for so long?

It's gotta get better than this....

Will it get better than this if I hold on and not give up on trying still to make my life work?"

The answer is YES because you make it so.

You don't give up no matter what. You are more blessed and more ahead of the game than you think.

Unless you are in a 3rd world country dying of hunger and illness, you're cool.

If you're not sold in to slavery you still have hope.

If you're not getting shots and/or blowns up, you're very fortunate.

If you are not getting molested, physically or emotionally abused and neglected, you are near peachy.

If you aren't battling an eating disorder, then chances are you can hold food down longer.

If you aren't shaking from alcohol withdrawal or that of any drug while you're desperately trying to get clean, you have no idea how much you're envied.

If you aren't homeless, you got a fighting chance to make a rebound not having to worry about a roof over your head, as well.

Yo Pinballs! It's not hopeless dudes, like totally....

Often times it's a case of strategy, more restful sleep, proper nutrition, getting sunshine, exercise, DRINKING PLENTY OF UNSWEETENED WATER, and having a place to vent openly; you'd be amazed what having this clarity will make on your situation.

You need to start knocking down the easiest to handle issues like DRINK WATER FIRST.

Take bathroom breaks.

And if you reached a point you really don't give a sh*t because you've gone constipated, pay attention and deal with it past laxatives and soap.

If you are caught up drinking water, hitting the head and after you wash your hands, worked on grub, proceed to the next round of basics....

The 10 Basics To Worry About:

1. Know Worrying Only Makes Things Worse

2. Stop Worrying If You Don't Want Things To Feel Worse

3. Begin To Feel Better Instead

4. Breathe In Deep

5. Breathe Out Slow

6. Stretch

7. Drink Water

8. Refocus On What's Going Right

9. Put Your Worry Away

10. Chillaxit Pinball

There once was a pinball that left such an impression, that someone associated stress as becoming a human pinball. One moment you are rollin' along and then BAM!!! You get side swiped and launched towards something hard and it hurt knocking in to it!

Everything is too loud! Light is too bright! There is too much chaos! There is just constant drama!

You are tired. You aren't resting well. You are eating worse. You're in a cycle, a few actually. It's a lot. It is overwhelming beyond exasperating. You want out as the human pinball, much like that original one that left that much of an impression, it went down in infamy for being the inspiration of a dreaded analogy.

It could be worse and if it's fast approaching, it has become an emergency.

****CALL 911****

There's worse things than needing babysitting in the loonie bin cooler for a short holiday of 3 days off. Ideal is not letting things get so out of hand you need intervention, but if it's too late and now part of reality, accept you're dreams of feeling well again could benefit from a break in a controlled, supervised setting.

But lets say it's not that bad yet....

A self check-in to the psych ward for a sabbatical might be better than waiting to hit critical mass and having you placed on a 5150 72 hour hold. That's roughing it, while going to a psychiatric hospital by choice and you pack for it, is A LOT more comfortable.

This if you need the mercy of sanctuary, otherwise you need to lean on healthy coping skills to buy you time to put a handle on your problems, so you can resolve them and can relax again. Trying to suppress anxiety doesn't have to be a daily norm y'know! But I imagine you don't know. If you knew you wouldn't feel like a pinball in a pinball machine.

Press Play To Listen To Black Sabbath "Paranoid" For The Soundtrack.

What will it take for you to know how to cope healthy in order to cope effectively and change things around so you don't give up and go numb?

It's obvious what happens if you go numb long enough. It's clear that's not what you want.... But sometimes it's not so obvious why you keep returning to feeling like you're trapped inside again and the desperate feeling returns.

You're not on a schedule to figure out what will pull you out of the pinball machine once and for all. Know you're meant to go at your own pace because your life is custom to you.

You could pick up tips that have worked for others, but how long it takes for them to work for you shouldn't become something else to wig out on.

There are many reasons why things take a while to register, besides settle post it getting bad again. Don't stress about the time it takes to do it right. It's practice to learn how to feel better and more resilient.

And if you begin to feel better but things slip and you relapse back in to the pinball machine, remember pinballs are built out of steel and the pinball machines have glass ceilings....

Use your imagination to offset what logic lacks. It's not all going to make sense while your on the brink but give reason a chance. It can be funny when things get funnie, but the draw to check out is far from it.

"I need someone to show me the things in life that I can't find
I can't see the things that make true happiness, I must be blind...."

~Black Sabbath~

If you're asking for back up, that's one thing. Asking for one sole person to bail you outs, then you're better off making that one person you. Be your own best friend and advocate. In my experience you need to go to several sources and tap resources to rebound. Perhaps what you're blind to is you don't accept life's challenges as a leader....

If you approached your problems as a leader that knows the incentive is getting out of the pinball machine means you can focus on thriving over stressing, then you have an idea from what point to turn things around and point towards the ideal direction. All those factors you see as X's and O's on a page from the playbook you're figuring out as you go.

You may not understand why you aren't feeling stronger than the forces of the game of pinball you're in, but accept it as far as acknowledging it, and then tell that feeling to shove off AND pound sand. You're not going to let these details keep you down!

Build up your resiliency from the inside out by nurturing yourself. If you need help figuring out where to start, let yourself cry. There's no shame in releasing the pressure as it was designed to do. Cry yourself asleep if you must, but when you feel it's safe to let down your guard, have your emotional enema....

This goes out especially to guys mislead at a young age "boys don't cry" which is unfair and sexist. If you are experiencing grief for your dying sanity, don't sweat what others think and focus on rebounding instead.

Press Play To Listen To Black Flag "Nervous Breakdown" For The Soundtrack

"It just doesn't stop. I start to think the last of it passed and then something else goes wrong! If it's not one thing it's another! It feels like I'm being punished...."

Let's say it is "punishment", what are you atoning for? How much is cause and consequence then? If you are paying off a karmic debt, you're still getting life experience that is preparing you to make a comeback. You could rebound or stay stuck.

Now let's say it's not punishment but rather a chapter in your life's story, would you still opt to give up on yourself and everything that matters to you?

The problem with being 'stuck' in the pinball machine, you're psyched out. Now it getting you to go proactive towards handling it done, it may take some time but if you give time time, it is possible. 

If you think about it, if the comparison to feeling like a pinball in a pinball machine has turned proverbial and many can relate to it, then it's not a stretch that you aren't alone in feeling overwhelmed right now. You also wouldn't be alone in recovering from being pushed to your limits....

"I wish I knew everything was going to be alright and I'm going to be okay. Some days it's really hard to hold on. I want to live but not how it's been with all that's on my plate and the stress from it...."

What you wish for needs you to be interactive with effort to make it come true. Something about wishes few understand is that once you ask, you need to prepare to receive and then the toughest part is accepting the blessing.

If your case is one of stress that's making you crack, your wish is for your problems to miraculously resolve themselves, when it takes more than that. What you should wish for is the enlightenment and commitment to put in to affect the theories of solutions to all that has you feeling at the mercy of a pinball machine.

"I've heard it before to not give up but I'm tired of everything going wrong and feeling depressed. I didn't ask to feel anxiety. I didn't agree to feeling hopeless. It's just too much and I want it to stop. I beg God for it to stop but all I get after that he sends me what I can handle. Well I don't want to handle anymore! I'm done! It feels pointless! Please don't judge me for wanting to rest in peace."

Powered by Squarespace.

Copyright ©2018 By Rev. Mother L.G. Flores. All Rights Reserved.

Heaven Please Bless All That is "Pauley's...." and May No Harm Come To This Therapy In Motion, Adult After School Special, What Happens Cuando Nos Ponemos Las Pilas, Mark In Miles Stones, for This Dreamer and Music Maker Shake, Rattle n' Roll!

Amen.

"Siempre Fiel En Sangre y Lagrimas"