Pauley's Tavern and Pool Hall

Daydreams to cope with sometimes take on lives of their own....

al·le·go·ryˈ (aləˌgôrē) noun

plural noun: allegories

   "A story, poem, or picture that can be interpreted to reveal a hidden meaning, typically a moral or political one."

   “An Allegory is a form of extended metaphor in which objects, persons and actions in a narrative, are equated with meanings that lie outside the narrative itself.

The underlining meaning has moral, social, religious or political significance of abstract ideas as charity, greed and envy.

Thus an allegory is a story with two meanings, a literal meaning and a symbolic meaning.”

   Yes, I looked it the f*ck up and with that you know what is needed to be known to understand what the Pauley’s Tavern and Pool Hall book series is about.

  Oh I should add that the censor is pretty much off most of the time. PG this story is not. PG13 neither. R yes; but beyond that?

Shhh....

Now some background info on the place ”The R*tards" go to play.

(Pauley’s term of endearment for his patrons that don’t act their age, especially when sh*tfaced.

Think about what "r*tarded" means, then how it's used in every day language to be an insulting description.

Just like calling a child a "b*stard", some words should be questioned as too f*cked up to use like they're whatever.

"Wh***" is another one with an edge, and yes these words among others will be questioned, but you as readers decide the fate of these words as they apply to your personal vocabularies.)

   Pauley’s Tavern and Pool Hall is a sort of 'speak-easy' name for The Iron Horseshoe Tavern established back in 1974 by Paul "Pauley" Kelly.

It’s called this to keep what are now known as 'hipster' invaders away, and its whereabouts only known by word of mouth.

Is it elitist?

Perhaps.

Or it is about self preservation and preventing as long as possible, their haven from being taken over by those that do not honor tradition, nor would uphold Pauley's Code of Conduct.

  New folks are welcome, as long as they can respect the School House Rules and don't complain when Lucy gets unplugged; otherwise foos are getting their a*ses expelled!

   Over the years The Tavern has become a home away from home club house for old timers and mostly blue collar roughneck man children with its latest motley generation currently in their 30’s, give or take.

Some married with children or divorced with visitation on the weekends.

They have bills to pay, money to save, jobs to not f*ck up in order to do both.

Occasionally these a*sholes may brawl and Pauley’s shotgun Grace taken out to dance, with Jukebox Lucy playing the soundtrack; but overall the place is mellow on a weekday afternoon.

   The crowd that made The Tavern its watering hole is loyal and there is a sense of kinship between the boozer drunks.

Stories this tavern has no lack of thanks to the antics of the patrons, which also include my own.

   I wrote myself in as a character using my real name because all this stemmed from a daydream I had, to keep me company while I went for long walks with detours, in my new town of residence;

Boyle Heights, California.

   Though home for me will always be my beloved

East Los Angeles, Califas

   One day I thought of a man that didn’t exist to help me move on and let go of the past, by focusing on the existing hope of the present and lessons learned.

  Perhaps it was my way to prepare myself mentally for the future because I don't have much to my name other than my imagination.

 “Mikey, Jacob, Bobby, Joe, Paul, Davey, Alex, Dennis and Lou”

   Names of made up men that are a close knit pack of pals I will never forget.

They all represent an aspect of the men I have known, both in the good and bad; but they are human, even if fictional.

They are part of the details to the symposium full of zanies.

   This story experiment at times is a sort of open love letter to men that have shown their integrity even as they also try to get things right.

These men are strong but also weak.

Happy but still stressed.

Hopeful but discouraged at times with what they feel is out of their control.

It’s a mix we all endure, but with them; I feel how unequal men still are when it comes to expressing their feelings on it all.

How do I know?

I'm a daughter of one that expressed them regardless.

   The women in this saga also are shown going through their own life roller coasters and attaining their triumphs for they too are strong and capable.

It’s just with them, the way their stories are told is different.

How different?

The goal is to show we could use a little bit of understanding from the fellas.

With their stories, I hope to tell men that not all of us are their enemies or psychos, that more often than not, there was an issue with communicating and emotions go on edge.

We can be worthy of trusting and also respecting.

I hope to tell, we can have our bad days too, even if our hairstyles look nice; and we don't always know what the f*ck we're doing either.

We do know we could be wrong also.

No really.

Women are capable of knowing they can be wrong. Getting us to admit it, now that's something else.

*cough*

I want to show the men I was able to reach through to, women can be their friends as well, and shoulder part of the old burdens that say a man must bare these alone.

Even as women, we can relate and be more than arm candy hood ornaments, "Honey can you bring me a beer?".

  But this is to reassure the males that are willing to read, they'll have a place in what is usually considered female terrain.

  Yes this is a quirky soap opera Spanglish novela, for a subculture of those that bought in to what a friend called:

"The Rockabilly Retirement Plan for Punks, Skins and Goths".

And what was surprising, the guys did get in to it as much as the gals. I mean, how can I write an open love letter to men, if I don't include what matters to and interests them?

  From the serious like Erectile Dysfunction or even the car not starting and being already late for work.

To the "Are you f*cking serious!?!" and the latter said in two manners.

One with enthusiastic glee like they scored, and the other in BOHICA despair.

Espeakin' of which....

This is a bedtime story dedicated most of all to Our Troops and 'Docs' green side or civilian; for I do know the power of a reality break, if not reading oneself asleep.

And this because I want to "Play It Forward" and yes I do mean play.

  The man I would spend countless silent moments, wondering about his happiness and safety; he was the life lesson I needed to get me out of a bad place; even as I felt helpless knowing which bad place he was headed back to.

This Army Coptor Doctor ridding one of Anansi's spiderweb threads, tied to the foot of a Dragonfly Dustoff back in Stan; reminded me why being able to control your focus, makes dealing with difficult things, easier to cope with.

The chaos will still be there, it's how you allow it to affect you, that makes a very important difference.

You either learn how to hold on and fight or you don't. That "don't" had been my concern for him.

There was a reason his story began to stand out to me.

"Yet for me that also came from the desert, compassion I also knew how to show...."

  Eyes like his and lack of smile, you don't forget.

He had the face of many that aren't returning all that well; but his face comforted me when it would look silly; but haunted when it was a stoic with unintended, resigned grace.

  So this allegory that aims to be a cult classic, does have its soul, as that odd daydream of mine, found a life of its own.

And it became a Shoretale Fable of Therapy in Motion and thinking up the answers that become the solutions.

It's all just rhyming for the reasons, that carry us through the seasons of change.

Suggestion: Look up Grandiose, Ostentatious, Pretentious, Narcissistic, Delusional, Self Absorbed Motor Mouth, but most of all Ironic Catharsis. Thank you.

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Heaven Please Bless All That is "Pauley's...." and May No Harm Come To This Therapy In Motion, Adult After School Special, What Happens Cuando Nos Ponemos Las Pilas, Mark In Miles Stones, for This Dreamer and Music Maker Shake, Rattle n' Roll!

Amen.

"Siempre Fiel En Lagrimas Y Sangre"

FYI, don’t call me baby or gorgeous

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September 17, 2012

Montebello, CA

6:53pm

“Ginita, why are you getting bent, d*ck just called you gorgeous.”

“Yeah but the f*cker pointed out I have sexy lips too and you know what that means.”

“Girl work what you got.”

"I don’t want to work a single thing Suzy! These a*sholes were being creepy nice because they want me to fall for their lame pick up lines. There is little ‘How are you?', 'I like how you think', 'You are a unique individual' that sort of thing.”

“Ginita esos c*brones can’t help themselves, they are f*cking hornball guys and don't forget it's pick up bar vibe there.”

“Still though, they called me gorgeous and that skank and d*ck killed that word for me.”

“El p*ndejo was being himself and it was f*cked up what she did, f*ck him and that b*tch.”

“I feel like I am bitter about it.”

“Mija, you still are in a way but you got plenty of guys that dig you. Y'know you are the one they j*rk off to, take it as a complement.”

“That doesn’t make me feel better Suzy.”

“Girl we got to get you back in to vixen shape and re-teach you how to strut, you are too pretty and young to live like a nun.”

“But I feel more respectable when I don’t dress coquettish.”

“Ginita, even if you dress modest and a tomboy, the guys will still wonder how you look like undressed.”

“It wouldn’t have been so bad if I could undress them, pero como no sabes?”

“Mamas, don’t let getting butthurt over a d*ck because he didn’t choose you, affect you. So he wanted someone else that was also younger, that’s on him and you got young guys hitting you up; that’s them telling you that you are not outdated.”

“Yeah I know but I should come with a warning label for what words not to use that set me off.”

“Damn Gina get over it puleeze!!!”

“Fine, sh*t!”

“Look, you got that Michael guy anyways, he likes you and you like him back, but c’mon, he’s a guy trying to tell you that he thinks you are hot too, and wants to get to know more about you like serious-serious. F*ck just take him on as a lovah and quit that saving it for some guy that would be a prince f*cking charming that only exists in fairy tales. And those other clowns trying to flirt with you, take it with a grain of salt.”

  I look at Susan being right but I still want to debate what she is saying. Not every guy should pay for what one schmuck said, especially one that never really opened up. But Mikey thinking I am, and the guys that have told me again with every new picture I share, I guess I’m a sore loser that wasn't even up to bat. At least I don’t cry about it like I used to, bleh.

“Are you still going to leave him hanging?”

“Mikey?" I sigh. "No, I’ll get over it, just need some time to adjust again.”

“Text him at least to say you need a week knowing you, to handle stuff but that you look forward to seeing him after so he knows you're coming back and you can f*cking chill already... But since he’s acting like he’s really in to you, I would only give it a couple of days so get the f*ck over it! If you shut him out too, there goes another prospect you pushed away. You don’t want to do that.”

“I’m making myself another Amaretto Sour, you want one?"

"Yeah, make it a double!”

“Sh*t girl, I was going to make it a triple!”

“Orale then, get me drunk you hot mama!”

  I go to Susan’s kitchen to mix our drinks and pour extra Amaretto before a small splash of sweet and sour mix and unlike bartenders, I add extra cherries. I return to her living room with our drinks.

“You know Ginita, forget those online idiots, Mikey has been good to you, all sweet and caring; give him a chance and if anything get laid.”

“F*cking Susana it doesn’t work that way with me anymore and besides it was you’re a*s that told me to register an account as a back up to me dating again.”

“Ginita, he’s a guy you do want his **** inside of you, don’t f*cking deny it. Hell, you started to enjoy making out with him and he’s even getting the STD test with results on paper for you, not every guy does that for a chick that is just going to be a lay.”

  Susan made a good point, but that f*cking word irks me. I can handle "Hey sexy", "How are you beautiful?'" and "Pretty face" but "gorgeous", I still think of her back stab, UGH how it hurt!

  I so was a friend of convenience to her, f*cking hija de su ch*ngada madre y padre tambien! (daughter of her b*tch mother and father too!) Why am I still on this and that skank? I know, f*cking aye Lizett!

  Mikey, think of Mikey. He's cool, he seem honest; he makes me smile. That's good. Guys that make me smile rawk, though the creepy ones from POF, I guess I needed to be reminded of what NOT to date. Mikey... okay Mikey can get away with that word more or less. F*ck! What is my malfunction with that f*cking word!?!

“You’re obsessing about it still aren’t you?”

“Shhh!”

“Ginita that guy, he would have been a one night stand saying all the bullsh*t you wanted to be humored with and you another notch like with all those other foo's you got strung out on. Like those other pr*cks, he didn’t appreciate you as a friend or even someone that was interested. You were blinded and they got off on it, that's it.

  Now that none of them are around, date Michael or other guys but that one d*ck, he’s not worth it to still rehash old f*cking drama. He’s the one missing out on you because I know what you are willing to do for your man.”

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“Aye not that much!”

“Yes I know no fuchie fuchie, b*tch; f*cking prude!”

  I glare at her then it's now to... “What is up with guys asking me if I’m down to do that!?!”

“Because it’s taboo and they want another **** to f*ck.”

  I look at her again being right and I down my drink.

“Suzy want another one?”

"Yeah you're whining is killing my buzz."

  She gulps hers down and I make us another triple round. I am feeling tipsy… Why don’t I want Mikey that is so far Mr. Right Enough to be the guy that helps undo the damage from the past? It’s not his place to. I should deal with my baggage and not let it affect what seems to be forming between us.

 I did enjoy his kisses. I liked his weight on me and knowing he is STD free would be a turn on because I don’t want to do oral with him with a condom on. I feel like the 'Santa Slut' wants to come out to play, ay Maria Purisima... NOOOOO!!i!!

“Suzy what exactly does gorgeous mean?”

“English time again? F*cking Gina! Fine, let’s look up the definition to shut you up."

  She takes her cell phone off the coffee table and looks up the word.

"Gorgeous: adjective Something beautiful and pleasing to the eye. Happy now?"

“So I’m eye candy Suzy?”

“When you doll up you are.”

“Hmmmm… It sounds generic.”

“So what would you rather a guy call you then?”

“Good question. Getting called baby irks me too.”

"Ginita, what's the real issue?"

"What do you mean?"

"You want to be a bad girl, but only with a good guy that makes you feel like Snow White woke up to his kiss."

"I'm not holding my breath for the CPR Suzy, but I would like to be wanted in a way that shows respect without dominance. Share intimacies with no ulterior motives. He won't be in it just for the sex. He'll want to get to know me for real. I'm just not ready to jump in and have sex again. I'm not lustful."

"It's your medication and players too in a hurry to shoot their load and leave! Maybe Michael could be who to trust to let your guard down with, but I'll give you credit. None of those POF creeps got your number."

"Actually two guys have it."

"WHAT!?! Are they cute?"

"They're my type, but one I think just likes the pomp and sideburns, but nothing kustom kulture. The other is in to it, but he's a musician and is looking for a bettie in stilettos and a flower in her hair."

"You going to go out with them?"

"Depends how well our convos go over the phone."

"So you're exploring your options; about f*cking time!"

"I'd like to keep it respectable with these dudes, no kissing on our dates."

"They're gonna ghost you quick Ginita."

"In a way I hope they do if they get 'tude about me not putting out. I would gladly with the right guy I feel a sexual tension with that has shown he's a cool dude; but too many want to rush to fooling around or more. Michael wasn't that way and I feel conflicted I even let those two guys have my number."

"Ginita, just go confess at St. Mary's where you can lay it out there for the priest to hear about your sex life. He'll tell you to wait until after you're married by church. Good luck sticking to that one."

"I know it makes better sense to have sex with someone you're getting to know before full on committing. We could not be pheromone compatible and though we care about each other, the sex wouldn't be as thrilling for me."

"You want bare skin taste, sl*t!"

"Mira quien lo dice?/Look who's saying it?"

"That's part of the details that makes doing it good extra awesome! You're in to each others tastes and you keep feeling those butterflies that you feared flew away for good. Sex should be hot or it's going to turn in to premature love making or something you're going through the motions with."

"Exactly."

"So you're gonna go out with these two guys, and keep it cool. But what if you feel little tickles?"

"I don't want to. I'm not in a rush to play baseball."

"What if he's not either, you gonna go on date #2 and really feel like you're not staying true to the guy you've been spending a lot of time with, and already made out in the daylight?

"Why is it important I comparison date again?"

"That Mikey guy has gotten pretty far as your anxiety is gonna let. You want to focus on him and keep crushing back and forth with conflict. If you two go steady at the rate you're going, he may become a short term boyfriend. It takes you a long time to bounce back even if it was you that pulled the plug. You need perspective Ginita."

"Makes sense to keep my feet firmly planted on the ground, because I feel like a **** tease already. I don't want to lead him on and burn him."

"Then you're decided you won't consider Bachelors #2 and #3 at all?"

"Maybe it's my own commitment phobia acting up. I did check out these guys, and as much as I wish it worked different, I'm attracted before knowing much about their minds."

"Ginita, I can appreciate you want deep and meaningful for yourself, with raised standards and a new opening of your tower door to hope; but it's biting you already."

"How?"

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"You know you shouldn't go for the first thing you see and buy without looking at it a little closer, and comparison shop. You may find yourself having to choose between the first guy or the new guy crushing back. You would push away both.

  The new guy won't be torn up about it, not enough time was invested; but with Michael, he's put time in. He's formed expectations. If he sees you changed your mind, with him it will burn because you cuddled after having a heart to heart convo."

"I don't want to burn him too."

"You don't want to be guilt tripped in to staying either. Go out on those dates if your first phone chats were good ones and you felt good vibes. Don't feel guilty for testing how in to Michael you really are."

"Only because I want to be sure.... Man Suzy I can't go out on those dates!"

"You and Mikey are going to peak."

"Then I just go back to giving him a heads up I'm overthinking again and need to meditate my mind still."

"He's gonna want to help you sort through it."

"I'm tempted to write him a letter to express myself. Suzy can I jump on your laptop?"

"You're not going to email him are you!?!"

"I KNOW!!i!! I'm drunk so emails and booze don't mix, I'm over that stage. But I need spell check and clearer writing to understand what I wrote."

"Go for it, but don't get too poetic or you'll go long and he'll need Red Bull to stay awake to finish reading what you had to say!"

  I bite my tongue.

"Hey Michael,

  I hope you're well. I've been thinking back on the time we've spent together getting to know each other. I do like you, but I feel like we're moving a bit too fast. Please don't think I don't want to see you anymore. The issue is I'm concerned we're going to peak and then grow apart until there's no more replies to a reduced text interaction. I don't know what I'm doing and it has made me nervous. I feel I've been baring myself to you with a trust that takes effort to hold on to. I really am not used to dating and know what is all the etiquette when it's not about a hookup.... {Read back. Do I want to use the word hookup?}"

"How's your letter coming along?"

"Not intense, I think but I did need to follow up that me wanting to slow down isn't me pushing him away. I'm also earnest that I don't know what I'm doing or know much about dating etiquette."

"What p*nche etiquette? You go out. You either have a cool time or you don't. You make out or have sex if you're turned on. Make sure not to sleep over or go to a motel, he may leave cash on the night stand. If he's interested after hooking up, he'll pursue. If he changed his mind about how in to you he actually then is, you don't hear from him. You delete all his pictures or banish them to a memory file that you visit when you need to cry. I say f*ck it, NEXT! But you I know are more sensitive."

"No offense to what works for you, but I don't have really experience in being in a healthy romance Susana. I can't turn it on and off like I don't care at all. I actually looked at my memory file of old digital photos guys sent me. I didn't keep their mini me's pics, but some faces were worth remembering. I was surprised when I seen others kept my dating profile pictures where I was going for cute good girl, but oh boy did it make me a damsel that was stressed with guys."

"Ginita, you're pretty, more so when you doll up. So you can't walk in high heels for sh*t, or know how to style your hair fancy; you also don't always dress like a typical kitten even for Kustom Kulture, a good guy would recognize that, but you got to let guys tell you tastefully they're attracted."

"Most forget the tasteful part."

"Go back to your letter, I'm getting myself another drink. You want one?"

"I'm already chicken pecking with one eye closed.... 'Michael I do feel things I haven't in a long while or at all. I don't like my anxiety shows itself when I feel myself drawn more towards you. I know it's natural to feel uneasy when I don't know positive very well. You're a good guy that I appreciate hasn't pushed we.... {What do I call it?} have casual sex which it didn't feel right in the past with others. But my concern is.... we're still moving a bit fast or I'm interpreting things wrong, and I truly am sorry if I'm confused.... (DELETE)"

  Maybe I should just make up I'm spending time with friends that need to regroup. Whoa. I just considered lying to him about why I need to slow down for a week or two.

"Suzy, I deleted my letter. I think I should call las chicas to ask if I can sleep over to get my break from Mikey coming over."

"Will you talk to those POF dudes that got your real number?"

"If they call, I suppose I would; but I'm biased."

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Heaven Please Bless All That is "Pauley's...." and May No Harm Come To This Therapy In Motion, Adult After School Special, What Happens Cuando Nos Ponemos Las Pilas, Mark In Miles Stones, for This Dreamer and Music Maker Shake, Rattle n' Roll!

Amen.

"Siempre Fiel En Sangre y Lagrimas"